Passion

Ada sorang member aku encourage aku utk bergiat balik dlm bidang music ni. So, here I am.
Sementara cuti ni, aku buat lagu. Main game pun kadang2 je. Focus lebih kat bidang music ni, sbb passion aku dah kembali.

Yeah, passion aku dlm bidang ni. Kalau xkerana passion, tak mampu aku nk fokus lama2 depan laptop, pastu tarik gitar, pastu depan laptop balik. Korang mungkin tgk lagu 3minit tu nmpk simple, tp hakikatnya xsemudah yg disangka. Drum roll, gitar, bass tab, lead, select plugin, settings. I try my best to remake all songs 1by1.

About Zero Range. Aku rasa now aku nak gerak solo je. Theory music dah ada, cukuplah sekadar aku mampu buat lagu2 ZR balik secara solo. Cuma suara aku yg meow meow ni xla sebagus Lazman Lee (tu yg aku rasa). Sebut R pun xbetul. But still thats it for ZR. Aku xnak kata ZR disband, tp aku nk tunggu org lain dlm ZR yg nk hidupkan balik. Bila org dah xda minat, buat apa nk paksa.

And pasal sokongan. Aku tau, ada yg memperlekehkan. Ada yg xamik kesah pun. Nak click ''play'' tu pun berat, inikan pulak nk bg pendapat. Yes, I know. Aku sedar, aku bukan bagus mana pun. Bukan best pon lagu aku, haha. Xkan la smpai nak kena pm sesorang pass lagu, dah mcm desperados pulak.

But still, Im doing what I love to do, and what I can do. Tak kesah la apa org nak kata cos I still got few friends that keep on supporting me, family, ひかり by my side. That's enough to keep me on track. Dgn bagi idea, bg semangat , dan ada yg sanggup nk cover lagu aku. Thank you so much.

Last but not least, here's my soundcloud. https://soundcloud.com/awie-eijishi. Kalau rasa rajin, dengar la lagu baru aku dlm tu, titled My Sacrifice. Kalau lagi rajin, komen sekali.

Peace.

Long time no see

So, yeah. 

It has been a long time since the last time Im here. 

Too many ideas but too lazy to write it down. 

Too bad.

zzz

I'm a happy go lucky person, but that doesn't mean that I can't be serious. When I'm serious, I hope you guys do the same. There's always a limit in acting childishly.

Feel so messed up till no song in the iTunes suits my mood now. zzz.

Pair of Wings

Hope and Fear is like a pair of wings. You need both to fly- Imam Maturidi. 

Taken from Matluthfi vid titled ''Sebelah Sayap". The main point of the vid is how people try to solve problematic person with own different ways.

Most of people noticed how the ''Islamic'' dude do it wrongly, when Mat Lutfi do the right thing, in helping his housemate that suffer alcohol addiction.

But do you guys ever questioned yourself, which type of person you are?

Honestly, I can see most of people around me, keep abandoning problematic person.

''Lantak dia lah, dia dah besar'',

"Bukan tak nasihat, tapi dia yg tak nak dgr",

"Ni salah mak bapak dia lah, dia jadi mcm ni",

Don't you think that those words can be considered as running away from them? Why? Do you feel afraid that you would be the same?

Or you just simple don't care to help them at all?

And honestly, I'm also sometimes do the same thing. Running away.

Even when we're little, our parents already teach us ''jgn kawan dgn budak tu, dia nakal". There's a logic in their words at that time, but now we can already think which thing is bad, which thing is good. Still afraid?

If we want to help someone, put ourself into their position first. Feel his problem, find the source. And try to help in istiqamah way. That's what I believe, and what I trying to do.

Instead of just making our heart speak, make our mouth say it ! Take action ! That's what friends are for. Help who in need, not simply left them.

..If bad people only gather with their kind of people..

..and good people only gather with their kind of people..

..then until forever those tainted heart won't change..

..unless its by Allah's will..

The people who left behind.

Everyone still happy with the digree intake result. Most of my friends get the chance to further their studies. Yeah, I do feel happy too. But still, I got this mix feeling. I feel abit sad. For those who left behind.

That 19th July, I check the Penerapan result with my handphone. And the result ''tidak berjaya'' pop out. I check my IC number and key in multiple times but still nothing changed. The feeling of despair,broken, sad, confusion. My eyes starts to get teary and questioned myself ''Did I mistakenly fill in the application form?", "Did they consider my C in Thermodynamics subject as not-fit-to-study in Mechy?", "Or did they mistakenly put my name out from the list?", ''what should I do now?"

But then,a few minutes later, Zabid tell me where exactly I should click. By then I know I clicked the wrong link. And I did get the chance to further my study in EM220, at UiTM Shah Alam. Alhamdulillah. I directly sujud syukur at that time.

Allah give me that few minutes feeling of someone who didn't get the chance to further his studies. Its really painful. At that time I realize, Im not that strong to face failure.

The people who left behind, isn't just them who ''tidak berjaya'' in the application. People who still didn't finish their diploma journey also being left behind, and people who stop the journey mid way. Surely in their mind, they will keep thinking ''It would be nice if Im moving with the same phase with my friends....''.

For my friends that still on your diploma journey, especially Haidhar, please don't give up. Finish the things that you had started. We all have different paths, but in the end, the destination is still the same. For our brighter future, and for the knowledge. You can do it, I believe in you. I know that one day you will be the architect that build my house.

And for Noa, you're not stuck with time, but you're stuck with the place. Honestly, I really hope that we can together go to UiTM Shah Alam, but Allah is the best planner. Maybe He want you to accompany Haidhar there. Well atleast you got Anip with you. Now Its time for us to depart.

Im gonna miss both of you there. I dont care if this sounds gay or not. I bet I can't have much laughter without both of you guys.

Now we still got time to hangout. And hopefully, we're gonna meet again during holidays later. Or we can always meet in Legendia.

Every good thing will have its end

>_<

Working pt.2

I've been working around 3 weeks. It's quite tiring because I don't have shift. From 10am until 10.30pm. And it's repeated almost everyday. But it feels really good because finally I can set my mind to rest, and my body do all the work.

Just like what Faki said, ''bila duduk rumah lama-lama, mula la terfikir bnda ni la, bnda tu la". So getting busy is really a good thing. It's like I put my mind into a limbo, and my body stays in reality. (When you wanna work aa Faki? haha )

There are 4 people that work together with me. My uncle, Kak Is, Nuoy and Ahdeq. Ahdeq just work as a part timer here. Its really funny when I have a conversation with Kak Is using 'Kak Is-saya' because Nuoy just used 'aku-ko' with her. It's funny because they will suddenly change into 'akak-adik' conversation infront of me. Haha. Well I feel like its important to put 'kak' for girls that is older than me (although some says they don't like it). I feel more comfortable. I really do wanna call Wawa with Kak Wawa but considering none of the boys use it so.....I just call her Wawa.

One thing that I feel really weird is that I suddenly become more sensitive these days. There's a time when a family with their children that suffer retardation come to the counter to order Nasi Ayam from me, I'm stunned and nearly cried.
Listening to sad song also become dangerous as it immediately change my mood =_=''

Other than that,I feel isolated with people working around here.Feels like I'm a total stranger. How come yesterday the casher girl from the beverages stall asked me ''kerja sini ke?'' when I'd already work here this long. Or maybe she just wanna have a chat, but asking that question aa..ask other thing cannot meh? @_@

The only people I recognized come to RTC Gopeng is one of UiTM Penang ENT lecturer and Nurakmal's family. Her father, mom and sister. It's funny because Pakcik Azizan wears blue T-shirt with "Azizan'' name on it. Then I immediately check Akmal's FB to confirm it's her father >_< . Akmal lazy to follow them, wew.

Last but not least, the danger will be far away from now. So I'm safe for now. But still I got this mixed feelings. Aiyaa.......  *Bang head on wall*

Working

I'd started to work at my uncle's Chicken Rice shop, at RTC Gopeng. This is the 2nd days. Quite tiring, been doing all sort of work. From casher till cooking. But still it's fun to learn all sort of things.

But being busy is a good thing, because I can distract my mind from keep thinking of thattttaannnywayy..

It feel so good to say thank you, and smile to so many strangers each day :D

Come visit me here, keke