What If?

What if u didn't read this?

What if I live at Pandan Indah and not Taman Maju?

What if im not Nazri and Sharina's son?

What if i didnt enter SMK Seri Iskandar?

What if you're not my friend and i didn't even know you?

What if there's no Asnawi Bin Muhammad Nazri in this world?

What if ''I'm not here''?

Some of you who read this,maybe you''ll say "You're here or not,it doesn't make any difference to me,Awie''.. But some of you wouldn't say the same thing and didn't think the same way..

That person,is the person that I treasure the most in my entire life..

Zahiruddin and Aiman said that ''you can give influence to people easily Awie! Don't waste it! you should be PM and easily win election!''

Actually,there's two feelings that i get when i heard that.Happy,as well as sad..

Happy? If I manage to change someone to be a better person.I don't know who? what? which? when? where? why? and how? that process happen.I really didn't realize it..

It comes naturally,.or I plan it without noticing it!

Yes.I'm really happy if the person really do changed to be a better person.But what if I accidentally change someone to be worse? more than she/he ever be before?

That thought make me feel quite sad.It is because,I cant find which part of myself that can influence and change others.. For me,its really dangerous!

Who knows? maybe 10 years from now? next year? next month? next week? or even tomorrow? or after i done typing this? i suddenly changed and become a bad person.The worse part of it,I change some of you to be bad as well!

There's always one thing that I weak at.That is controlling my own emotion.

Aqmal said that ''You can give others advices in problems,but why you cant give advice to yourself when you have one? You're not Awie if u cant do so!''..

That question really make me realize my problem..

But Alhamdulillah,I had found the formula of solving that problem..

The formula is you! The person who appreciate me in their life as well as I appreciate them!

Without all of you,im not Awie that u know now! If my appreciation,love,and respect can easily been shown,i would show it to all of you so that you know how huge it is!

Thank you very much,.

..till then..

p/s:I promise,you can hit me with your best shot if I changed to be a bad person! I give you the license to do that! xD