Sunday, October 27, 2013

Long time no see

So, yeah. 

It has been a long time since the last time Im here. 

Too many ideas but too lazy to write it down. 

Too bad.

Friday, July 26, 2013


I'm a happy go lucky person, but that doesn't mean that I can't be serious. When I'm serious, I hope you guys do the same. There's always a limit in acting childishly.

Feel so messed up till no song in the iTunes suits my mood now. zzz.

Thursday, July 25, 2013

Pair of Wings

Hope and Fear is like a pair of wings. You need both to fly- Imam Maturidi. 

Taken from Matluthfi vid titled ''Sebelah Sayap". The main point of the vid is how people try to solve problematic person with own different ways.

Most of people noticed how the ''Islamic'' dude do it wrongly, when Mat Lutfi do the right thing, in helping his housemate that suffer alcohol addiction.

But do you guys ever questioned yourself, which type of person you are?

Honestly, I can see most of people around me, keep abandoning problematic person.

''Lantak dia lah, dia dah besar'',

"Bukan tak nasihat, tapi dia yg tak nak dgr",

"Ni salah mak bapak dia lah, dia jadi mcm ni",

Don't you think that those words can be considered as running away from them? Why? Do you feel afraid that you would be the same?

Or you just simple don't care to help them at all?

And honestly, I'm also sometimes do the same thing. Running away.

Even when we're little, our parents already teach us ''jgn kawan dgn budak tu, dia nakal". There's a logic in their words at that time, but now we can already think which thing is bad, which thing is good. Still afraid?

If we want to help someone, put ourself into their position first. Feel his problem, find the source. And try to help in istiqamah way. That's what I believe, and what I trying to do.

Instead of just making our heart speak, make our mouth say it ! Take action ! That's what friends are for. Help who in need, not simply left them.

..If bad people only gather with their kind of people..
..and good people only gather with their kind of people..

..then until forever those tainted heart won't change..
..unless its by Allah's will..

Monday, July 22, 2013

The people who left behind.

Everyone still happy with the digree intake result. Most of my friends get the chance to further their studies. Yeah, I do feel happy too. But still, I got this mix feeling. I feel abit sad. For those who left behind.

That 19th July, I check the Penerapan result with my handphone. And the result ''tidak berjaya'' pop out. I check my IC number and key in multiple times but still nothing changed. The feeling of despair,broken, sad, confusion. My eyes starts to get teary and questioned myself ''Did I mistakenly fill in the application form?", "Did they consider my C in Thermodynamics subject as not-fit-to-study in Mechy?", "Or did they mistakenly put my name out from the list?", ''what should I do now?"

But then,a few minutes later, Zabid tell me where exactly I should click. By then I know I clicked the wrong link. And I did get the chance to further my study in EM220, at UiTM Shah Alam. Alhamdulillah. I directly sujud syukur at that time.

Allah give me that few minutes feeling of someone who didn't get the chance to further his studies. Its really painful. At that time I realize, Im not that strong to face failure.

The people who left behind, isn't just them who ''tidak berjaya'' in the application. People who still didn't finish their diploma journey also being left behind, and people who stop the journey mid way. Surely in their mind, they will keep thinking ''It would be nice if Im moving with the same phase with my friends....''.

For my friends that still on your diploma journey, especially Haidhar, please don't give up. Finish the things that you had started. We all have different paths, but in the end, the destination is still the same. For our brighter future, and for the knowledge. You can do it, I believe in you. I know that one day you will be the architect that build my house.

And for Noa, you're not stuck with time, but you're stuck with the place. Honestly, I really hope that we can together go to UiTM Shah Alam, but Allah is the best planner. Maybe He want you to accompany Haidhar there. Well atleast you got Anip with you. Now Its time for us to depart.

Im gonna miss both of you there. I dont care if this sounds gay or not. I bet I can't have much laughter without both of you guys.

Now we still got time to hangout. And hopefully, we're gonna meet again during holidays later. Or we can always meet in Legendia.

Every good thing will have its end


Thursday, June 20, 2013

Working pt.2

I've been working around 3 weeks. It's quite tiring because I don't have shift. From 10am until 10.30pm. And it's repeated almost everyday. But it feels really good because finally I can set my mind to rest, and my body do all the work.

Just like what Faki said, ''bila duduk rumah lama-lama, mula la terfikir bnda ni la, bnda tu la". So getting busy is really a good thing. It's like I put my mind into a limbo, and my body stays in reality. (When you wanna work aa Faki? haha )

There are 4 people that work together with me. My uncle, Kak Is, Nuoy and Ahdeq. Ahdeq just work as a part timer here. Its really funny when I have a conversation with Kak Is using 'Kak Is-saya' because Nuoy just used 'aku-ko' with her. It's funny because they will suddenly change into 'akak-adik' conversation infront of me. Haha. Well I feel like its important to put 'kak' for girls that is older than me (although some says they don't like it). I feel more comfortable. I really do wanna call Wawa with Kak Wawa but considering none of the boys use it so.....I just call her Wawa.

One thing that I feel really weird is that I suddenly become more sensitive these days. There's a time when a family with their children that suffer retardation come to the counter to order Nasi Ayam from me, I'm stunned and nearly cried.
Listening to sad song also become dangerous as it immediately change my mood =_=''

Other than that,I feel isolated with people working around here.Feels like I'm a total stranger. How come yesterday the casher girl from the beverages stall asked me ''kerja sini ke?'' when I'd already work here this long. Or maybe she just wanna have a chat, but asking that question aa..ask other thing cannot meh? @_@

The only people I recognized come to RTC Gopeng is one of UiTM Penang ENT lecturer and Nurakmal's family. Her father, mom and sister. It's funny because Pakcik Azizan wears blue T-shirt with "Azizan'' name on it. Then I immediately check Akmal's FB to confirm it's her father >_< . Akmal lazy to follow them, wew.

Last but not least, the danger will be far away from now. So I'm safe for now. But still I got this mixed feelings. Aiyaa.......  *Bang head on wall*

Tuesday, June 4, 2013


I'd started to work at my uncle's Chicken Rice shop, at RTC Gopeng. This is the 2nd days. Quite tiring, been doing all sort of work. From casher till cooking. But still it's fun to learn all sort of things.

But being busy is a good thing, because I can distract my mind from keep thinking of thattttaannnywayy..

It feel so good to say thank you, and smile to so many strangers each day :D

Come visit me here, keke

Friday, May 24, 2013

A Diploma Story, Episode 0: Time Spent Walking Through Memories

I am afraid. Each time I click on this orange-B sign, I feel really afraid, and sad.

Because the only thing that will cross my mind, is about past memories. And as my finger dancing on this keyboard, I feel that my mind becoming numb and dull. Feels like I'm forcing my fingers to move, to write here.

This feeling, it is the same as when I'm leaving my beloved high school.

It feels like, watching the last episode of a very good drama series. You know it's the last episode, and you just hope that time would move slower, so that you can enjoy the very last moment of it. 

And when it's over, you will be asking ''Is that it? I need more.''  

3 years had passed and I'd already finish my diploma in Mechanical Engineering at UiTM Pulau Pinang. Too many things happen, too many things that I had learn. And now, It's a bitter time for me to say goodbye to friends, lecturers, Casa Prima, and UiTM Pulau Pinang. Arigatou..Sayonara..

Saturday, May 11, 2013

The 4 Seasons lyric

A day in 2010. I'm in the class, too immerse in finishing The 4 Seasons lyric..........and its done! after a few days, the lyric is finally complete! Right on time,the school bell rings, well its time to go to physic class.

In Physic lab;

''Akmal, see this, our new song the 4season lyric is complete !'' I said to Gin, while showing the lyric to him.

''Woaaahh gimme that wanna read !" Said him.

Without we realise, Cikgu Naziha had started her teaching. Yet, the lyric sheet is pass from one person to another around our table. Zeroes sit in the same table at that time.

"Awie ! what's that? give me" Said Cikgu Naziha.

"Err, lyric cikgu." I replied.

I stand up, and give to Cikgu Naziha. Hoping that she didn't tear it up. For a moment, she read the lyric...

" Ishhh this lyric is so jiwang. Let me hold on to this until this class is finish" Said Cikgu Naziha while smirking at us.

After the class is over;

"Cikgu, this is not a love song. It's about us form 5 students, that will leave this school" I explain it to Cikgu Naziha.

" I see. Well, you guys should let me hear it then." She said.

There are around 10 songs that I had composed so far, and the 4 seasons is my favourite one. I know, im still an amature. I'm not sure what old timer composer would say when they see the 4season music arrangement, vocal notes and stuff.. but hey ! Atleast its something that came out deep from my heart.

Here it is,

Ku, hanya mampu menanti,
Menanti saatku, berlalu pergi,

Ku, rasakan sebak di dada,
Sakitnya menahan titisan air mata

Waktu, remaja hanya sekali,
Ianya datang, dan berlalu pergi

Kini semua hanya tinggal,
Tinggal kenangan

Saat kita bersama,
Tak dilupakan

Tabahkan hati, ini kenyataan,

Kenyataan ini amat, menyakitkan
Kenyataan ini amat, menyedihkan.

Inilah dia, takdir kita.

Dan ku, teruskan hidupku,
Semua ini pengalaman manisku.

Kita, kan berpisah di sini,
Sampai nanti kita bertemu lagi,
Walau ku harap saat terhenti,
Namun kini ingin ku katakan.

Selamat tinggal.

PS: actually I wanna compose 4season part 2. For people in UiTM Penang. I'll do it, maybe :)

Sunday, May 5, 2013

Conviction (Something to keep safe)

Too many things happen these past years. Too many things to say.

I dont know from which I should start.

Whether the words later will reach personas.

I'm not sure,

but still, I will gather the strength to keep on writing here.

In the game of cat and mouse, it's really tiring.

Because the fact is, there's too many things that too good to be true.

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Thats It !


Its like a hit to the face, adoiyaii..

tiba2 terfikir pula kan.. so wanna share it it is

Mungkin Allah belum temukan aku dgn jodohku kerana belum cukup sempurna imanku !

BANG BANG BOOM ! rasa mcm terkena straight to the face.. my own thought, give me facepalm..

This is it ! an accurate reason.. this is the answer

Yela, kalau iman sendiri tak terjaga, cemana nk jaga iman org lain betul tak?

well maybe I should change little by little. Mana2 kurang tu kena repair. InsyaAllah.

Monday, April 1, 2013

Thin line

A thin line, that no one would notice.

It goes naturally.

But that thin line,

seperates between the one that being remember and the one that being forget.

It's not changes, it's just a travel.

Between sides.