Ego-lastic.

Should I? Or shouldn't I?

I would choose shouldn't,although my heart scream out "Go for it Awie! you still have the chance to get her!" Hey heart,hear this..I dont want to be egoistic. This matter,it's seriously about two hearts,not just you,my heart!

Its been a while since the last time I say her name or I hear rumors about her.It has been a taboo to myself.Until suddenly,one of my friends tell me something on facebook...

''......She afraid you would find someone else in UITM Penang''

''I dont believe it,Dont lie to me.."

"No im not.I didnt lie to you"

''Can you prove it?"

"Ask one of her room mate by yourself.."

Okay.So, I do asked one of her room mate.Just as I thought,its just a misunderstanding.. Actually,she said "i really didn't believe Awie.He will find someone else soon.."

Haha.yeah.. thats the reality.From those words,i can conclude that she probably would be happy if I really do find someone else here.Plus,she didnt believe in me at all..

I should stop believing in something that just come in my dream."She afraid you would find someone else in UITM Penang'' and "I really didn't believe Awie.He will find someone else soon.." are two sentences that sounds quite same,but very difference in meaning.

Should I continue trying? Or shouldn't I? EQ vs IQ.. Yes,i do love her.But i don't know if I still have the courage to get close to her.Or even get her heart.I just don't want to get hurt.Maybe im a coward.But sometimes,being a coward is the best thing to do.

Someone said to me "Just be connected to her! text her! IM on Facebook!"

I'd already done that.The last time I IM her on FB,the conversation turned out to be a ''one-way-conversation''.Im the only one who asking.And she just answering one by one.Atleast,cant she just asked me on my study or something like that?

and she didn't replied to my last message.Probably out of prepaid.Hope so.

Sigh..I still can't see someone here,in UITMPP that have the ''accent'' like her.So,just be me,here.. no ''girl-hunting''..Perhaps,I completely doesn't have those ''double L'' feeling anymore.Like and Love.

She said "Im happy to be friend with you.Lets be friend forever''..

guess what? I said "yeah,friends forever.."

Dear reader,can you relate on that? still,a few words shows a huge meaning..If someone tell me to wait for her.Then Im asking you back ''till when? till she find someone else and at that moment,all that i get is pain all over again?'' what a happy ending..let just be friend FOREVER..

Atleast,I still believe that Allah is wise and merciful.She would fated me with someone.Only time will tell.